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So near yet so far.

Hmm. . . . My brO going for his graduation tour in Aussie land soon. Then I wished I could go too..Cos he's going to a few states...
Probably people would have thought I came back from there last year..but the problem was I didn't get to travel around to the states before coming back.

It was definitely a tough decision that time. . . . for someone like me who wished all my life I could one day travel to different countries and see the world for once..

The opportunity was right in front of me.. yet I never had the chance.

I knew that I probably won't have the chance to visit again.. but I had to make a decision that time..tough.

One of the main reasons why I chose to study there was because I wanted to visit other countries..apart from singapore and Malaysia.

Cos if I didn't go.. I don think I'd ever have a chance to go for a holiday there.

Hmm..time spent in brissy was mainly studying, clubbing and movie watching.

HMMM...AH. .

what a life there.


No idea what I'd write tonite..the sleepy spell is inching in.

I once told Q that I'm kinda of a person who doesn't really speak to people whom I just got to know...as in..I'm those if I have nothing to say to the person..i'd just not. Its not like I purposely don start a conversation with the person..its just that I don't if i've got nothing to say.
Call it anti-social? Probably?

Some people can just speak to people at ease..and I mean really at ease..even just meeting them for the first time...I just don think I'm one of those.


He told me that it is something that has to be changed, and that I have to make extra special effort to change, cos I can't just dismiss it with my meainings of "its just me..", and not doing anything about it.He said that it's just plain excuse.

Changing that trait..hmm..that would sort of be the eqivalant of asking me to eat one whole ginger. Something I wouldn't wanna. Cos it doesn't taste good.


Until today...I still have that trait.


And Q also has the trait. But the difference between us is that he tries his very best to change it.
To the extent that I didn't even realise he has that trait.. even after knowing Q for years..
His hiding skills must be darn good.


He told me things that has been bothering him year after year(shall not disclose as its confidential) and when i heard him speak about the problem..I offered my advice and views... trying to help him realise that it might not be such a big problem after all..year after year..I thought he wouldn't feel that way again..

But to him it was the biggest problem still.

Or probably my words were not enough.

Probably my words might not be good enough still for the problem to be solved but i still think somethings ..the harder you try, the more difficult it is..

And as time goes by..it becomes even more difficult..
Cut yourself some slack, look at the picture from another angle, you might discover things you never did.

When you try looking at things from another perspective...it will be dfifferent from the one you had all while long.

Durian and mangosteen are very different fruits, but there'd be poeple who dislike durians and love mangosteen and vice versa.