hi blog,


its another week..had a hectic week b4..yesterday jie told mi that he has lost some feelings for mi..when i saw the words he typed..i felt so sad..and while talking on the phone..he told mi not to go back..and might as well stay there enjoy longer..i told myself that i won't say things that i don mean to him..when i heard him say those words..repeatedly..its hurts mi ..then i'd laugh along ..but actually i am hurt by his words..
hmm..rite now..i don think he even remembers that this blog exists maybe..why is it that despite talking to mi..he still feels demoralised..and in a low self esteem..i wanna help him overcome that phrase..
now..he treats mi differently frm the past..i could sense the feeling veri strongly...it is different..
hmm..
and the headache is back agn where the feeling i had from last year..i don believe we can't get past this phrase.if both parties put in effort ..wont it be good..?or at least boht of us won't feel that miserable..? i haven been putting effort in consistently....cos i don wan us to drift apart..
he told mi that he's trying hard to hold the feelings to gether..;(..thats like so difficult..if one day he feels he's lost the feelings for mi despite our best efforts in maintaining the relationship..hmm..
we'd strong feelings for each other..however when i asked him if he still holds strong feelings for mi now..i sensed the ans was no...he treats mi colder now..
sigh..
the headache i had yesterday nite was the exact feeling last yr..i tot i hafd forgotten that kind of feelinf..cos last yr seems like a blur to mi when he was in OCS...
i 'm not gonan succumb to it..i believe we can change the situation wihout letting the distance get between us..it is extreamly tough ..
and listening to the words he say at times...maybe he didnt realised those words does hurt mi after all..but its jus a phase..
i still love him the same as b4 i came to study..but now...does he still love mi that way..?this is an ans that i shall try to find out for the next 2 mths..