hi blog..had a chat wif zhijie ..hmm..he had issues that he wanna get off his chest..and i'm glad that he's saying it out..hmm..he feels drained bout life..and the lack of direction of it..and he's been having that kind of feeling since..somtime ago..though he's born in a family that isnt veri well off..and he doesnt have the opportunities to make a choice of his own..hmm..it doesnt mean tat it;ll be like that in the future..he is able to be in control of his life..we all do i feel..next time in life..there'll be lots of other more important decisions..and those are the ones that will determine the path u take in life..he has his studies..and after that is the part where lots of decisions come in..its up to him to make those decisions...though u could nt choose for the past 20 yrs..who says that next time u can't choose wat u want in life?yes...without the financial aspects..u lose some opportunities..but its up to u to make use of the rest of the opportunities that u have..which might not be any worse than those opportunities that u lost...u can't keep thinking on the things that are not within control of u..instead..work on those opportunities that u can make a difference in..won't that be better? hmm..thats some of the things i feel.. hmm..i'm not a good advisor ...but i try my best ..after i listen to him speak....i feel like going back and be by his side to comfort him..
sigh...the boardness here is so overwhelming ...at nite..i see him online..we nv tok...hmm..i;ve told myself that i'm not gonna let this relationship go back in the stage tat we experienced a year ago..the drifting apart..i don think i can take another round of that kind of "communication" we had....i feel that i am trying hard to maintain this relationship....or is it that despite efforts put in..ultimately its still the distance that couldn't withstand the time...hmm..the lack of his prescence is hard to handle..but i try not to overcome it..last yr when i feel i'm at the lowest point of our relationship....i had a headache whenever i think of us in that situation..i feel i can't handle it if it happens agn..hmm...lost my train of thought agn..
dono wat i'm gonna write..think i gonna sleep ...dreamland..
hmm...i'm not sure if u'll be in this blogger to look at his post...if u read till here...jus wanna say i still love u alot...it saddens mi to noe that u are feeling depressed...but i;m really glad u told mi those feelings u had...i wanna share them wif u..i hope i had enlightened u abit by telling u wat i feel above..hmm..don worry too much..gambatte~!