2nd Jan 2007

2nd day of New Year!

Tomorrow's a new beginning, it really is..considering that major things are gonna happen in the company tomorrow.

Pray hard that nothing goes wrong tomorrow!

Holidays have been really nice these few days...staying home most of the time to nurse my cough.

Not good to fall sick on the 1st day of the new year..tsk tsk..but i'm feelin all righty now!

Hmm..Just now I checked my mail, and I received an email from an ex- friend.

2006 was the year that I lost that friend, or should I say, the other party had no interest in keeping the friendship anymore.

Since I came back from my studies in December 2004, a couple of us have tried many ways to ask that "friend", lets call her F, to join us in all the gatherings.

She was once a part of our usual hangout group in the bunch of secondary sch people..and one of the closest ones too.

Suddenly she drifted apart from all of us..without any reason at all.

I tried contacting her..and sending her messages to meet up someday with a few of us, but its all in vain.

She wouldn't reply nor contact us. Suddenly, she'd be missing from all class gatherings and festive seasons, even birthdays.

Initially I was quite disturbed by the fact that she could actually do that..forsaking the friendship of almost 10 years. Worse still, without letting us know the real reason behind her actions. And we had to guess her reasons for doing so.

Did she have a problem that she wouldn't want us to know? Did we in some ways offended her?
Of course there's lots of reasons that went through my mind during those times..

Since last Year..I've given up all hope of having her as a friend.

During her birthday last year, I wanted to give it one last shot. I smsed F if she'd like to meet up for dinner with a few of us, since her birthday was fast approaching.

She replied a few days with something like.."old already..no need to celebrate lah.."

I replied, "we're not really celebrating anyway..just meeting to have a meal since we haven't seen you for such a long time.."

After that message, she never replied again.

I took it as a silent reply that she has totally no interest in meeting up with anyone of us anymore..

So I shall forget the friend too.

I really felt relieved on the closure of this friendship. At least now I know the answer of what she's thinking..without actually conveying to us.

Through her actions..it's all clear as crystal.

Apple said this on one of our gatherings.."We've always told F about our gatherings, except this one.."

Which is really true. We do contact F for every gathering..but she's never replied once.

I told the rest that F has decided to be excluded from our group.

For 1 year and 8 months, I've always hope that someday she might actually come and join us in the gatherings..and tell us how she's been..since all of us were still concerned about her.

Till last August, I've decided to stop trying. Apple has decided to stop trying too.

It takes 2 hands to clap, be it relationship, friendship or kinship.

Its just really weird when someone ask "where's F?" and everyone would look at each other..not knowing how to answer the question, and every year, this same questions repeats.

We'll never know the answer.

Speaking of the email, it's not important what the contents were..it made me think that since the friendship is already in the past. I have no reason to reply the mail..which contains 2 surveys.

How ironic.

Hmm..shouldn't dwell on the unhappy stuffs. I still have my good friends which matters most!

You know who you are.

Have a good year ahead peeps!