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I've come to realise something only recently.

I used to search for the answers..but to no avail. Try as I might, I couldn't understand.

It was difficult. It left me puzzled till recently I realized..

Avoiding doesn't solve the problems lest it'll be hard to handle. Facing it would probably be a better option. At least something is being done about it to make a difference, for the better.

Trying to be someone you're not, it gets tiring after sometime. You'd realise the energy you've put in is taking a toll on you. At times..you wouldn't even know which is the true you anymore. All the while you've been trying hard to be someone you wished you could be.

Probably deep within each of us..there's bound to be certain character traits that we wish we could have, but the truth is we can't be like that just at the snap of the fingers, unless of course alot of time and energy is spent in trying to change it. And I mean alot.

But ask yourself..undergoing such a change...is it really something you want? Something that you really feel happy once you've attained the change? It's a long hard process... are you damn sure that this is who you want to be?

If yes, then I'm very happy for you. If you're unsure..maybe its time to rethink the path you're taking. Its agonising to see that it bothers you that much.

Probably you wanna change certain things because you know it'll definitely make you happier if its different from the current situation, just that at the moment you can't do anything. Or you don't know how to go about doing it.

The feeling sucks. Big time. Because of the fact that you can't do anything to change the situation.

Probably given the chance to start all over again, you might have taken a different path in life.